Hoping

Today I’ve had enough of myself.

I’m a mess. I keep criticizing the world when I’m not able to look at myself in the mirror and notice any flaws. I’m a hypocrite.

There are several things I do right now that I used to frown upon. Drugs. Alcohol. Bets. Tobacco. I loathed these things. Now I do them.

Today I stop.

Because I won’t drink a beer again. Won’t smoke a joint again. Won’t smoke a cigarette. Won’t bet anymore.

As of today, I haven’t drunk any alcohol in the past 3 days, haven’t smoked any tobacco or weed since yesterday and haven’t bet anything in 15 days..

I need to quit all of these. Now.

I am in control of my body and my actions. I can do this.